I definitely had a different plan for my blog post today, but here I am in my room on my chair, scribbling away about something entirely different like I just had some sort of epiphany.
I have been struggling since sometime in December last year; I was thinking about shutting down my blog. For a really long while now, I have not liked the trajectory especially when it came to consistency. At some point in time, I actually did think that I had it figured out, then I just get sucked back into the intense world that I live in, and I am back to square one and a half- literally. I like to think that I am good at a lot of things, but I haven’t been hitting it like I would have liked to with my blog.
It is so easy to start a thing – I have learnt that in my short life – but sustaining that thing is actually where so much work is and I do not think I effectively understood that before starting this. I have come to realize that the reason for starting a thing is extremely important for sustaining it. We are humans, a species constantly evolving so the way we feel about different situations change and in some cases the reason for starting a thing might not be valid anymore after so much time has passed; You might not even agree with your so called “why” anymore.
Before we get ahead of ourselves, I am not shutting down my blog. I still did not have a perfect answer even after my epiphany (I was actually having a conversation with a friend) but I needed to remember why I started my blog to get all the “ginger” I need to get my affairs in order.
I like to think of my blog as my baby, and I do not think I have treated it the way I would treat my actual baby in a really long time. So, this year I am at a point where I want to work on my weaknesses and get better at this. I do not think everything is going to happen in an instant like it is magic, but with baby steps, a lot of dedication, holding myself to higher standards and being accountable, I really believe I’ll do well. I think I have so much I want to do and I actually want to begin to “do” them. Even the Bible says “Faith without works is dead (James 2:17)”.
Happy new year to all you beautiful people! I am so glad that you are here, it means the world to me. This year, please leave a comment, I want to hear your views so please share them. This year, I hope we are able to have the most difficult conversations with ourselves in our secret spaces and not be comfortable with all the things we might be doing wrong. I love you, so much!
For every post this year, I’ll be dropping things that a friend of mine is into (till I exhaust them all, if I can).
I’ll be starting with my friend Aremu Myke. He is a medical student and a youtuber. You should definitely check him out if you are interested in self-development. You definitely want to be a part of the legendary gang!
My name is Toyosi Adeniran (actually “Adeniran Ifeoluwatoyosi Abigail” which is quite long lol ) and just call me “TheToyosiAdeniran” because I feel like the ‘the’ gives it this catch and makes it seem like it’s just one name. You know the way some people say they are something by day and another thing by night, well I am a medical student everyday (both day and night). I am also an aspiring public speaker and very passionate about people knowing their rights and having those rights protected. And above all, I am a Christian and my faith is very important to me.